I have been practicing magic and internal arts for multiple incarnations. As a result of this dedicated practice, I could carry the "self" over through life and death. Recovering my true self at a young age allows me to continue the path, which is what I have done. At the age of six, I would spend hours meditating in deep trance states and recovering things from my past. There were no external teachers, no books, and internet access to learn esoteric practices back then.
As I grew older, at around 11, I started visiting paid offline seminars on Fast Reading, Meditation and Sixth Sense. I wanted to get back and recover my core abilities. At 15, I enrolled in full-time training at Internal Arts School, where I trained mostly in Qi Gong. Soon, I reached the limits of what it could offer and went on a search for more profound teaching.
At 17, I passed an interview at the school of magic. I have been training intensively every day for many years, climbing through the ranks and obtaining practical abilities (called siddhis). My abilities have been examined and verified in reality. Getting top grades in university while spending 30 mins instead of 100 hours required showed apparent benefits of cultivation and magic.
After five years of training, I have started working with students, grading assignments, and participating in research projects. I got access to Closed Door retreats, where all "students" were advanced Adepts with abilities and 10-15+ years of experience in cultivation and magic.
It was always interesting for me to find like-minded individuals with common goals in life. But only some had the dedication and capability to keep in the circle. I have organized multiple training projects and groups of skilled adepts. We would work together on specific goals and tasks. Those groups were rapidly shrinking; that is how I found Aeordimm. Many people could not handle our magic circle's peer pressure and intensity. The weaker members were falling out each month, and only us 2 keeping the intense daily work going. Many research projects later, I have been to another closed retreat.
Eventually, we realized that we had found a more profound spiritual path in magic unseen by peers and advanced practitioners. The research conducted over a decade has given fruits. I quit the school, where I could have been a senior teacher, enjoyed a decent income and status, and embarked on a journey deeper into the Ancient Arts.
My memories go some time back before I was born. I remember meditating and being in a trance-like state of mind in the womb, visualizing ripples and images from past lives. Usually, being born is quite a pain, the pain of seeing the light and being helpless. I had quite an observer mind since my first days, and past experiences in meditation helped.
When I was very young, I visualized the purpose of life. I concluded there's no reason to carry on unless you possess some degree of immortality. Imagine all the work undone upon your passing; I couldn't stand it. I understood that I should live the life to make it permanent and promised to do everything in my power to achieve this goal.
My first "siddhi," if you can call them, was an ability to know events shortly before they appeared. Next, I learned the out-of-body experience, and astral projection, all without a teacher.
I began searching for answers in different places and traditions, teachers, some bad, some very bad, ultimately understanding that there's no clear-cut answer to everything. While I spend countless years cultivating the chi and meditating, I still see the mountains of goals ahead of me. However, I understood that to walk this path, you must have a true calling. Otherwise, there are way too many obstacles, the first being your mind filled with illusions and bias.
Therefore, it's easier to learn sciences than Art, so I also did it. I was piecing knowledge from various traditions, trying to disseminate illusions, and not expecting to find a correlation. Therefore, you must experiment, do so carefully, collect data, and see what works.
I met various people interested in the Magus path, but most of them lacked the mental power in their sea of consciousness to achieve any meaningful progress. I happened to check on them many years after we split apart, and they continued on the path of illusions and following New Age bulls**t traditions and their teachers.
I have been cultivating together with Neirong for more than ten years, and the experiences we shared are more than enough to help anyone on their spiritual path. We are not followers of any religion, cult, or a single tradition. The desire to belong to a particular group while natural in humans is not suited for cultivators.